Lazyness is a disease...

Lazyness is a disease and I've been riddled with it for years. Whilst I'm still young enough to regain my fitness and work on my health, I'm beginning to regret the years I've lost. It's a sad state of affairs, and a crying shame.

I was a fit, sporty individual, with a reasonable amount of talent. A talent that was massively unfullfilled. Now, I'm not talking myself up like I was going to be some kind of amazing sportsman, but then, I never trained hard enough to find out whether I could have been. I have a lot of 'What if...' scenarios!

Yet, here I am, about to make a declaration. It's a declaration that has a history, it has a message, it has a story yet to be written. This space is where I will dispense my reflections on the past, diary my ups and downs as (for the first time in my life) I tackle the 'Lazy Demon' who lives in my psyche, and chart for you the journey in which I WILL change my life.

I want to share this with you, the reader. You might be the same as me, we might share that demon. You might be drifting unmotivated through your life, like I was. You might look around you everyday and think 'why do they seem so much more motivated than me?' Well, I don't want to do that anymore; don't want to be that person.

I've often wondered where it all went wrong. That sounds too dramatic! You see, I've got a good 'normal' life, with a wonderful family. I stopped smoking about three years ago, reclaiming my lungs as my own. I've got an alright job, but wish I worked for myself. I guess what it really is, is that I've never felt in control of MY LIFE. Because that's what it is. Mine! And, this is the important bit...we've only got one! One!!

Well, I've looked enough gift horses in the mouth. I've never felt in control or confident enough to take a chance. I think I'm pretty intelligent. Certainly intelligent enough to do better than I am. I reckon there are an awful lot of people out there too, who are just like me. If you are like me, then I hope you've found this post. I hope you'll share my journey with me, and take on a journey of your own.

Now, how can I say this without offending my friend? A chance meeting, after a few years of not seeing each other (far too long to not be in touch with such a great guy and friend) ...this is the gift horse, if you like! I'm not going to go into detail, but he's done all-bloody-right for himself (and I'm proud to find that he has). We talked about a lot of things that night, growing up mostly, scrapes we used to get into. However, he also talked about what he was doing now. To cut a long story short...for the moment...it was pretty bloody inspiring. A couple of years older than me, it brought back the big brother feeling I had when I was younger. It was good to have someone to look up then. Now, after a lot of years, it felt like my brother had come back.

It's because of this chance meeting that I'm going to make the changes I need to, and take control of my life, like my brother has.

I'll open a couple of different tabs, as I see fit. My first will chart my excerise activity; the first step to ridding myself of the Lazy Demon!

We can do it together if you like!